Emotional responsibility

 Emotional responsibility

Emotions are  the reactions on something  is  taking  place  outside or   inside  you. To depress your emotions  is  equal to block the way off  for the traffic of  nuclear power into reactor. It blows  up!   

The  responsibility  is a capability of understanding the consequences for your every action ( thought, feeling, emotion, actions) and for every of your "not doing" action. You cannot be  free of the  responsibility, however we try really hard to throw it off. This is the magneto aim in your body  ( your consciousness). It doesn`t matter  whom you are trying to drop the responsibility on  - the result of your actions and non- actions will stroke exactly you. Any your actions and non-actions  have the destination point – YOU! Make your  skin off but the result will strike exactly you, no matter what kind  of body you use.

When you try to take  others responsibility on yourself, the result will strike  those  people  whom you were trying to “help” in such a way. And they will get the strong point to yell or beat you for such a help that wasn`t asked  for.

Emotional responsibility  is a capability of understanding the consequences your every emotion and feeling what you choose to  experience: express, depress  or transcendent it.

The  human being has a  freedom  to choose what  exact emotion and feeling or state to experience: express, depress  or transcendent it. But we rare  know about this  function of  ours.

So,  there are some news you could miss or skip in your childhood:

You are  not the hostage of emotional level. You are the Master. Emotions doesn`t own you. It is you who have the emotions.  Emotions are the  ship. Ship is  going where you  direct it. If you want to spoil your day just choose to be  injured, irritable and you will succeed in  coming into the harbor of  “What a Suck Day!”

If you want to come  into the harbor : “Great happy day!” you just need to choose to experience joy, tenderness and gratefulness. If  aggressive emotions and feelings come – do not depress it, but  comprehend (understand) its core and  find fears and  pain within these aggression. To understand and to transcendent  your aggression feelings and states.

If what you want to manifest ( dreams, desires, purpose and needs) refers only to yourself (body, energy, space) – so fuck these sick  others reactions and manipulations. They have  nothing to do  with your actions if your actions  are  concerned only with you one.

Fuck* - doesn`t matter. You understand  that  these “others”  just want to  feel good and pleasurable at your expense.

These sick  others reactions and manipulations: - Irritating, offences, envy and jealousy, complaining of different kinds and many aggressive reactions as a disagreement  to what you want to manifest and what  refers  only to you one!

- I want you to do some plastic. I want you to born me a child! You need to get a job and so on.  – Here, you replace the  responsibility of your  personal happiness into other  people. It`s  like you say: I will be  really happy only when you do what I want  you to do! Because, I consider if you  manifest MY (not yours) desires – it will be  better for you!

The points when your desires  refer  only to you  one:

- I  want to move to another country at my own expense. I do not want to get married. I am gay.I want to be  guitar-player, not office-worker.

So you  do not have any reason to feel guilty for your desires and actions. Fuck up others  sick reactions!

Fuck up!* - go away, fuck off. Skip it, understanding  that  these “others”  just want to  feel good and pleasurable at your expense.

If other  person chooses  to spoil her  or his  day with offences, contempt and  irritating, just because you do not want to  provide happiness and  joy for  him or her – so that is  the  responsibility of that  person and  has  nothing to do with you.

For  an example, you  can hit the table screaming :Fuck you!!! Or, you can just say: You behavior is piecing me off! You can confess in your fear and pain, aggression and say simply about it. But you can also replace it with different manipulations. You can choose to  say: It scares  me! If  to replace it with manipulation, you begin to yell and blame.

You exactly have the responsibility of what  emotions and feelings, states to experience. What emotions and feelings to understand, to depress and to express outward. And the most  important  how exactly  to express your emotional states and feelings: screaming, beating, manipulating  with guilt or  drawing, painting, singing and dancing.

If you have problems with emotional responsibility, the first attribute is  the feeling of guilt and the fear to hurt.  If you do not want to understand that another human being has the freedom to choose what emotions and feelings, states  he wants to experience. If you consider some person  stupid and not able  to make decisions by himself refer  to  his emotional state - that is the real problem. If you  consider yourself to bear other person responsibility for moods - that is the real problem.

- I am afraid to have a tattoo because my mother will be yelling.

 -  I do not get the divorce  because  my mother just love  my  husband (wife) .

- It will hurt my father if I confess that  I  do not want to get married and have children. (I am in  a depression and do not why I am drinking alcohol all  the time, .)

When we do not want to understand what it is the  emotional responsibility,  we ignored yourself or  the  others.

When you neglect yourself.

You are afraid to hurt (feeling yourself guilty) the  others  and   don`t  let yourself  do what you want to do.  You treat your life irresponsibly.

When you neglect the others

You want to get  happiness and joy and use the  others as instruments for it. You  purposely do shit and meanness, irritate others  otherwise day has  passed for nothing. If you are in a bad mood  you must be sure that  those people around you are in a bad mood too! If they are still not - you will "help" them to spoil their good emotional state. So, it is no matter for you what the others feel and want to do   -  you just use them as instruments  to get  happiness and  joy.

When you  neglect yourself, you sharply define all your actions to the condition that the  others incapable to understand themselves and accept different aggressive states.

Let`s get a closer look at the situation.

The  mother  offenses when I am talking to her  directly with anger voice.  When I tell her the truth it hurts her.  I know, when I tell her the truth on her blaming and claims, she  begin to  scream  that I am telling lie.  That is why I am talking to my mother not very often.  And when we are talking  I am mostly  trying to be silent in this conversation. And when I want to say something to my mother, I choose to tell her a lie for not to hurt her again.

We were taught that the most  important thing in life is to be the GOOD PERSON.  Now, we definitely know: to be yourself is very BAD! You need to be the  GOOD PERSON!

When we are not able to understand  that every  person bear its on responsibility  for its emotions and feelings to experience - so, we begin to show hypocrisies instead  of  respect. This mechanism is so strong!!! Try to see in with me: the more human (person) is dear to you the more  you  lie and choose to hide your  true emotions and feelings for not to hurt the person you are so in love with.  And we aware our love to these people who is  dear to us, but  all the time we try to keep the distance, because we always feel pressure next to them. So, when we are far from people we  love and care we feel lightness, joy,  happiness and freedom. And then we  feel guilty for this. But the  point not with the  other people. The  point is  with you inability to understand that every person bear its responsibility for its emotions and feelings.  If the  person chooses to suffer, offence and to feel pain, so all you can do  is to ask him:

-  Why do you make exactly this choice? Why do you choose pain and suffering  instead of understanding and gratefulness to the Universe for wisdom and experience within this lesson.

When you neglected the  others and constantly are trying to hurt, humiliate, offence, and purposely to be rude toward them to spoil their good mood  for  yourself feel  better: happy and joyful - you strike the preemptive attack.  If you find out to be such a person, you  just scare to  be hurt and that is why  you are trying to hurt others before they do it to you.  As we often perceive the love feelings as  weakness, we begin to defend ourselves and strike again and again those "loved one" to be strong and confident for their expense. 

The cheat-code to the ONENESS is inner Respect.

 The cheat-code to the ONENESS is inner Respect. 

The cheat code is a key to freebie*.

*I am blue in thick spots all over  and proud of it. (Adam Lennard)

Self-esteem is comprehension that human being has a right for own thoughts, desires, needs, dreams, fears and  all the borders of personal space – self-dignity – has a right to BE HIMSELF*.

When we respect others’ rights  for  their  experience – our self- dignity automatically builds up.

I understand, that now you’re getting your experience and I don’t intend to interfere to correct or control your actions, feelings, decisions – because you HAVE A RIGHT TO GO THROUGH (live) YOUR EXPERIENCE IN YOUR INDIVIDUAL WAY (by your desires, fears, decisions and so on). If I try to impose you my desires, fears and decisions then I’ll deprive you of your experience and you’ll have to live it through again. I find no sense in interfering, if only you ask me  for help personally, but even then… I will try not to do for you what you can do, understand and conscious yourself… I will try to help you to realize and comprehend everything  not interfering into your actions.

When borders  of self-dignity are absent, the person defines it`s desires, fears, dreams and needs (defines  ITSELF*) by the way of other people saying “NO” to him.  He provokes “others” to determine their  borders of self-dignity, in this way helping  him to  define his desires and fears. When the person  experiences displeasure and irritation, offences and depressions by interaction with other people – he  understands –  I AM HERE! Now, I understand what I DO NOT WANT!

The Person:

But then I find a strong need to understand what I really  WANT. So, I again  needs to strike myself against other people’s Refusal. I think… what should I do? I should provoke them. It means show them disrespect to their borders of  self-dignity. Go and shit in the middle of the room or give someone offense and make  them to throw me out of their inner Space*. Why? Because  at the moment of falling to the ground  from their “ Magic kick” I understand.. – Thank youuuu!!! I have understood what I did NOT* Wa-a-a-ant.

And falling to the ground you ask yourself  again: So, what do I WANT ?

And here we go again!

And It may turn up that it isn`t  your true desire  because it may come out of pain.

So the starting point is  SELF-RESPECT – self-dignity and ability to understand that every human being has  its set of desires, fears and needs and different people go through one and the same situation differently – getting  their  own personal experience.

If there is no self-Respect,  the person  literally throw bricks at passersby  making  them to express  aggression upon him to help him to understand what desires and needs he has and who he is –  to define himself. 

If you are not able to understand who you are and what you are sitting  in your room completely alone – you have to provoke others – to define yourself in the process of falling to the ground from their  magic  kicks: What a strange  animal am I that I always need  to  kick against the pricks*?

I kick against the pricks* = thanks to others’ aggression, the person without self-respect can understand himself better.

 

Without self-respect the  sincerity and direct openness of person turn into rude, scorn and breaking others’  self-dignity borders as a natural process of understanding himself.

For such people comprehending is defined by agreement with them. If they are told “NO” – they could see  that the others didn`t  understand them. But to agree and  to understand are different things. You can understand the person, but also you can deny to do some things he tells you.    

*Inner Respect  and self- dignity which is defined without interaction of any determinative  element (others’ reactions to yourself or own taboos) – allow to define your true self.

Al_Neiro – helps  human to learn how to define itself being eye to eye with itself, not by the  outside  boundaries or inside taboos. 

 (Nataliia Severska (Allayae)

Alchemy of Neurons

 

 Al___NEIRO*

I am existence, awareness, and I'm infinite like space ( Avadhut-Gita)

The neural alchemy is based on experience of the unified nature  and on the unborn quality of all things. The constant state "without the beginning" generates all things in the  most various form  and manifestation.
The matter  is the  "Unborn" plasticine brand. We used to believe in our mortality, completely forgetting about our true nature. The unborn is the creature whose solid matter acknowledges : "I had never to begin" and manifests it.
Al_Neiro - is  permanent researching and developing system which examines the neural connections mechanisms in a human body. The nervous system  connects in a single unit the incredible quantity of levels of what we simply used to call "HUMAN".
The thing "without the beginning"  from the Source till solid matter, has taken interlayer called "Personality" to imagine and live through how it can be when you are bounded, separated from the  Source, mortal, weak, helpless, powerless and  lonely.
The  neural connection is the  kind of router.
The neurocytes are puzzles  of  constructor. You put puzzles together to get certain figure. The kind of figure is defined by conditions you want to get and come to at the end. The  neural connections is the rout (step by step guidance ) for the  brain (the creature who put puzzles together to get the certain figure) how  to reach the  top of required effect easy and fast (put the figure into puzzles).
To put the GOD into puzzles you need to get  step by step guidance from Router. The  most crafty persons find this guidance searching through the web in ancient texts pointing that  I AM EVIL and I AM GOOD, I AM the first one and  I AM the last one.
But the smartest one studies the same  knowledge (step by step  how to become the GOD) by experience within their  body. It just they know that  the body you are  in originally contains all settings within. The smartest one also knows that any settings he discovers will not work until they are  lived deeply within his body.
For an example, we easily learned  how to put together the "suffering man" figure. The  route of this figure comes over the  path: "guilt+suffering = respect".
Self-knowledge begins directly from introspection, checking if what you are  doing matches to what you feel and say. To compare and to confess where the idea of yourself and behaving doesn`t completely match to your physical reactions on outer world .
To discover those parts  of you which you constantly do not want to see, understand and accept.  And  if you lie to yourself then  what kind of self-knowledge can it be? It just  one more  lie in a great mirage of your   Life.
We can easily fool ourselves, saying, for an example: I understand that true beauty is in the  humans` soul.
But if saying this, every time you see fat person with crooked nose you define him as UGLY* , then you still do not  understand one thing. You can try to fool yourself very crafty, you can repeat information  (some convictions and principles) in your mind, but the experience comes directly  from the  nervous system where the conviction "inner quality is  measured by external data" is  moving.
The neural alchemy is a capability to understand  how the nervous system of the body you are  in is working: what exact mechanisms fill the neural highway. Why  do you shit at seven o`clock, but not at ten. Why is it so difficult for you to dream? Why is it so difficult for you to  respect others? And the  main point, why do you betray you true infinite nature and think that you  are mortal and your body just a dust animated for this game?
You need to discover, acknowledge and understand why your actions, feelings, thoughts and all your  life is precisely going this  exact way, but another one.
ATTENTION: It raises ABSOLUTELY entire inner pain to the surface of you consciousness.

The neural alchemy is the art of self-understanding.

The  heart of this system is the  power  of Inner child, skill in dreaming  and ability to be totally in love with Yourself and Life.
The  power of  Fire from within is the power of  Pure Heart* and that is quality of the Inner child.
The dream is the everlasting torch, leading you through  the Eternity. It flames  directly within your heart.
The body is capable to manifest the quality "without the beginning". But to find the button "start this process" you need the tourch of Fire from within and Purity of your  heart.
If you consider this system as a healing one, you are deeply wrong.  It will not solve all your problems like blue or red pill.  You have to stick within on the need to be Complete, to be integrated with the Source, to be eternal pilgrim. You need  to long for trusting your body and Universe. You have to long for trying  to Understand!!!!
The working with convictions and personal  settings  is the smallest part of what is the point of the system. So, the great number of people  will use  it just as temporary vaccination. They will discover  their forbiddances and bounding convictions, fears and  pain. But, only for those who  is ready to change life completely and irreversibly in longing for freedom of  inner child  and  to spread dream wings - to be the Creatures  of Eternity and Oneness - this system is kind  of  F1 "instructions" .
ATTENTION: Many people send  me letters, not having  strict definition of what they want  to get from  this system by the end.
I do not work with people who  even doesn`t know what they want to get  in result. They name first what comes to mind (sometimes they send  me message like this: I name  everything that appears in my mind!): self-understanding, happiness, love, ....  enlightenment and so on.
Great many in general and none to detail, because everyone wants the same things.
I cannot  give you either understanding, happiness or skill in loving yourself, especially enlightenment. All  these "things"  you  make by yourself. I am only F1.
If you  are ready to make 100 % efforts to understand yourself, to give  gratefulness  and tenderness to your  body and personality for six hours a day -  I will be glad to  work with you.